Empty Nest Syndrome, It affects us all differently. Some
call it a midlife crisis, and they might be right? I could go out and buy a
Porsche, get a girlfriend and start being a dumb ass. Throwing away 25 years
with a wonderful woman who has shared with me the better part of my life, I
could grow a pony tail, buy a sports car and do my best to bang girls with
parental issues. The problem is that I look across the room and I am still
madly in love with the girl I lusted over in 1986. While I may have a bipolar
love affair with my musical choices, I can tell you I am smart enough to know
that I can’t relate to young women who might think the 80’s have historical
value.
So where am I going with this as I listen to the greatest
80’s hits on Pandora? (Just so you know
video killed the radio star.) I have been struggling to find my place the last
9 months. My Daughter graduated college, and got herself hitched. My Son graduated high school and will leave
the nest for Cleveland of all places. The
worst part is I still see my friends from High school on facebook and compared
to my kids this makes me question my own path.
Don’t get me wrong I am pretty happy I did not pursue that Duran Duran
cover band opportunity although I might have been OK with the Ska band.
So here it is, for the last three days I have been wondering
what the hell I was thinking gathering all this shit? I was a punk rocker who
hated Reagan and Tipper Gore. I became exactly what they wanted… a consumer.
This evening I calculated all the biggest items I could sell today and at a
price in which they would actually sell. Not including the last of my
California Property I need to sell. I came up with a quick storyboard that
spells out over $60,000 in assets that could be converted to cash. QUICK!
So here it is.. I am going to start selling shit. Do I need
this stuff to be happy? Am I a slave to my belongings? I sit here looking over
at my wife and I can’t help but wonder, if looking at her freckles and her eyes
does not bring me the same joy as they did twenty five years ago without the
garage full of crap? Could I give the money to my kids and change the course of
my family tree? Should I just pay for a trip to Italy so my wife can see the
things that excited her in a history book in the 10th grade?
I invite you to get on board this journey. I have no idea
where it will lead, or the outcome. I do know I can’t continue down this path. At
the very least you can watch me spiral out of control. Riding a rollercoaster
is far more exciting than the merry go round any day. For those that know me
this includes dumping all my business holdings, and investments. If it does not
bare fruit it’s gone. I am still not sure how far I am going to go, but frankly
my guts tell me to cut this to the bone.
We all have wings, but some of us don't know why?